I waited for the devil to know what was the most terrible thing – I could no longer see how they grew up. That feeling, when you realize that the glass has fallen from the hand and fell, but can only watch, it is no longer caught.
I said nothing to anyone. I decided to wait until the diagnosis and the right prospect were clear. I witnessed a wife who smiled and it was a pity that everything would change in the near future.
A few days later, research began, the oncologist, and so on. I must know that my blood cancer is lymphoma. I told the housekeeper and chemotherapy to start immediately. I have set up six intensive courses every two weeks. Every time I go to the hospital, I don't believe that it happened to me, I feel like a Breaking Bad hero. And while the most terrible part of chemotherapy is that name – "radical treatment", I don't want people to experience it. After the first course, the hair starts screaming.
I called my friend a hairdresser, he had cared for me for fifteen years and told me that I needed a hairstyle for baldness.
Then I realized that it was easier to hear such a diagnosis than to tell someone else. He messed me up, and I saw the great sadness seen. When I see myself in the mirror at night, I feel sorry for myself – I look very bad.
From the chemical side of my face, I swallowed, swollen, and naked and without a beard I'd never seen. As a result, my colleague, Zvonkus, came to help "solidarity" for the sake of solidarity, as I did.
Now there are two "urodes".
At the same time, good cheer and mood try to maintain chemotherapy until the end. After the hypodermic effect, the body injected for several months in a row has almost recovered after the usual "dose".
There are days when I don't leave home, but I try to work every day. And this is over. Only one question remains – are you helping?
After a month and a half waiting, I found a positive answer. There is no disease anymore. Unfortunately, this does not mean that in the next few years there is a good chance that the disease will return or release the electric bus.
And now, the most important thing is serious.
I thought for a long time whether it was necessary to openly say that. I doubt people will no longer see me as before, that's why it's the worst. That's why I speak.
A cancer diagnosis sounds like a death sentence for most people. I also think so. During my first two weeks in hell, in the deepest depression and in time, my weight dropped more than during the whole treatment. Feeling mixed – both despair and shame, and the desire to hide from all over the world.
But fear, the feeling that I know deep, I see it in my soul, I see in the eyes of my relatives, in the corridor of the Santara clinic. Today, many people will hear the diagnosis – cancer and their familiarity with fear begins.
I want to hug you all and say – don't be afraid, an unexpected test has hit us, but don't be afraid, it's just a disease, it's different than it was twenty years ago. He really heals. You are not alone. Don't be afraid, experts in this field are very professional and sensitive in Lithuania. In the case of blood cancer, the majority of patients recover.
I am cancer, but I will cure 🙂
Vilija Pilibaitytė-Mia, like many other famous people, did not keep secret that Stan's appearance had aroused suspicion. Mia said she herself wanted to ask about her health condition, but she did not dare.
"I am waiting for this post, because I do not know how to ask, so as not to offend, do not hurt, do not contain additional questions or answers … thank you! Be a charming friend to me! I know that you are strong, and after all it will get stronger! For everything, because there are many people around you who only want you to be good because you deserve it! We will do more than one blow with you and I promise that I will return to you in the recording studio. Brother, we are with you! "- Stan wrote a supporting comment from Mia.
Songwriter Liveta Kazlauskienė was surprised and thanked Stan for his openness and encouraged him to think and appreciate everyone about his life.
"I admire you, Stasiuk, because you are a wise young man! Thank you for sharing your situation. It's just for everyone who thinks and for those who spend time struggling with their loved ones for ridiculous and insignificant ambitions. The power to You, Stasiuk, you are a cool and talented person ", – this artist is supported by L. Kazlauskienė.
"Stan, I admire your strength, which is a source of inspiration for all of us! I'm glad you got it! It's not embarrassing! Everyone can face the challenges of life like that! I hope you are healthy and strong! I embrace!" – Agne Bilotaitė, Members Seimas, wrote to Stan's Facebook social network.
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